cerita surga

Gadis kecil itu selalu saja ingin bermimpi,
Menatap langit, membayangkan surga dan dirinya menjadi bidadari..
Ada taman-taman buah ranum,
Ada sungai-sungai yang mengalir jernih tanpa henti,
Wajah-wajah rupawan dan senyum yang selalu tersungging,
Indaah...begitu indaah...
Itu yang dia ingat tentang cerita surga dari bunda
Cerita yang selalu setia meninabobokannya
Memeluknya dalam dunia mimpi yang membuatnya enggan untuk terbangun lagi
Hingga sebuah sapa lembut mengecup telinga dan matanya
"Bangun sayang...hari sudah mulai siang.."!
Terlihat bunda sedang duduk disampingnya sambil tersenyum
"Bunda, aku bermimpi tentang surga...indaah sekali, seperti cerita bunda.."
"Iya nak, suatu saat kita akan terbang kesana bersama-sama"
"Dengan apa"?
"Dengan CINTA sayang...jika kita mampu memberikan cinta untukNya, Dia akan memberikan surga sebagai tanda cintaNya untuk kita"

*hanya sekedar menterjemahkan bahasa cinta yang dibawa oleh bidadari kecil saya setiap kali saya membangunkannya...:-)

something about woman

 I know I have to be tough, to be patient, to be wise seeing any kind of problems…but I do confess that I am not that’s perfect. Perfection is not the nature of human…’cos the only perfect Being is God, our Lord. I hope I know well what my weaknesses are, thus I hopefully could deal with and lead it to good way I should be. I feel very upset this morning...but I don't know exactly what the reason is. I just wanna cry and cry..hi, what happen to me??


It is He, Who created woman with the touch of sensitiveness, for positive reason, that she would becoming mother, which is essential to have such kind of sensitive character to express affections, loves and cares. Hence, woman is an active giver, and is being strong for their loves. Woman who loves to cry, does not mean she’s weak all the way, and so does woman who loves not to cry, does not mean she’s strong either…women are just women, they remain different to men, in thoughts, feelings, characters and strengths. Men sometimes wish their women to go all the way they are thinking, being rational by all means, 'cos tears seemed not rational to their way...(is that so?)


Mmh..well then, to me, using our ratio is a must, but we need to do a balance with our feeling! ‘cos feeling would mostly listens to our heart rather than ratio. Ratio is the product of brain, and feeling is the product of heart. And both have the same task to balance the way of thinking. Women possibly could not reflect their minds through words on the spot, and usually wait for the appropriate time to say something. Now I think that I need enough time to think and even to cry...hope to have relief such pain in there...

metamorphosis

I simply love d moment
when u come into my days...sleep in my womb
I simply love d moment
when u grow up month by month...then take place in my dream
I simply love d moment
when u first enjoy kicking my stomach...n give hopes into my life
I simply love d moment
when u finally come into d real world...show me that miracle
I simply love d moment
when u cry loudly expecting my milk...to tell me d great feeling of being a mother
I simply love d moment
when u always try to reach me n get me tightly into your hugs...to promise me that life is just fine
and I really love d moment
when u both have been around me n bring my life perspectives into mean of perfection...
love u till d end of life babies...

indahnya kebersamaan

Tidak sulit rasanya untuk mencari alasan mengapa "mudik" selalu menjadi momen yang paling ditunggu2 oleh siapa saja tanpa terkecuali. Orang tua/muda, anak2, pejabat, pegawai bahkan pengemis sekalipun ikut menuai berkah dari riuhnya suasana mudik tiap kali lebaran. Tak peduli macet hingga harus berhari2 melakukan perjalanan, tak peduli uang yang hanya pas2an, tak peduli kaki yang terinjak karena berdesak2an...mudik selalu saja menjadi incaran. Yach, mudik ternyata bukan hanya mempunyai arti untuk sebuah kesenangan, lebih dari itu, makna mudik adalah sebuah nikmat kebersamaan, kebersamaan yang mahal harganya karena belum tentu kita dapatkan kembali ketika kita bertemu di tahun berikutnya, kebersamaan yang selalu menjanjikan maaf untuk kembali menjadi fitrah, kebersamaan yang diwarnai pesta ketupat dan makanan2 khas lebaran lainnya...kapan lagi?? Untuk para orang tua, kebahagiaan mereka melihat kebersamaan anak cucu pada saat lebaran bahkan takkan pernah tergantikan oleh apapun. Saling belajar memberi dan menerima maaf, belajar berbagi dalam semangat kebaikan nan fitri, belajar mengerti bahwa hidup adalah suatu keniscayaan, belajar menghargai bahwa kita adalah sama, dan tanpa orang tua, saudara, teman bahkan lawan kita adalah bukan apa-apa. Subhanallah...indahnya sebuah kebersamaan...


menikmati rujak cingur dan es cendol dipinggir sawah...di desa masa kecil..


reuni bersama temen2 kampus...walaupun bertiga, hebohnya berbagi cerita...:)

warmness

Warmness! I find warmness there...
in your eyes..
in your smiles..
in your hugs..
even in your cries..as always..
my little angels,
I'm too scare to let u go on your life
ask me why??
no matter how, life is not as sweet as u have now
I just wanna hold u tightly in my own
to protect u..oh..
I don't wanna lose u
please come...come dear..into my hug
I won't let u go
hh...but I know u will learn
by time..by day..
how life teaches u about something...
love u always..

forgive me, please...

I think of being more reflective...I know that God is here, right in my heart...so near but I often avoid resembling Him. Ramadhan will come, I wish I could have it for more...ahh God, forgive me!!
Forgive me if I couldn't make my promise yet..
to be a better person..
to do a good life
to be a nice wife and mom for my kids
to be lovable to my friends
to not forget saying "thank u" for every kindness
to say sorry for wrongness
to reflect on your creations
to love You more than I love my self

I wanna make more for those God, I do...but I'm too shy to do that! I'm so worry that I couldn't make it again...

boring :(

I feel bored...uuhh...is there anything more worse than having this feeling?? "waiting is boring", yupz, the proverb is now proven!! specially when we wait for the uncertain thing..!! ohhh!
I like busy days, I want my brain works as it should be!! Please no more leisure..:)Thought the real leisure is in paradise...not in this world! u gain nothing if u do nothing :( and almost one month I did nothing, omiGod??!!
Yes, holiday is nice but it wouldn't be nicer when you take it too long! Both brain and body need to effectively being worked. I mean, I need more than what I use to do on daily activities as mom, as housewife...hhh...boring!
What to do? Uuffhh, I'm really stagnant, lack of ideas! It may slowly drive me insane...oh, no! I couldn't wait for more...! help...help...

something about woman

I know I have to be tough, to be patient, to be wise seeing any kind of problems…but I do confess that I am not that’s perfect! Perfection is not the nature of human…’cos the only perfect Being is God, our Lord. I hope I know well what my weaknesses are, thus I hopefully could deal with and lead it to good way I should be.
It is He, Who created woman with the touch of sensitiveness, for positive reason, that she would becoming mother, which is essential to have such kind of sensitive character to express affections, loves and cares. Hence, woman is an active giver, and is being strong for their loves. Woman who loves to cry, does not mean she’s weak all the way, and so does woman who loves not to cry, does not mean she’s strong either…women are just women, they remain different to men, in thoughts, feelings, characters and strengths. Thus I’m so wondering why men wish their women to go all the way they are thinking at times. They always want us to be rational all the means, and tears are not rational to their way! Well then, to me, using your ratio is a must, but do a balance with your feeling! ‘cos feeling would mostly listens to your heart rather than ratio. Ratio is the product of brain, and feeling is the product of heart. And both have the same task to balance the way of thinking. Women possibly could not reflect their minds through words on the spot, and usually wait for the appropriate time to say something. Please…just give us enough time to think or even to cry, we do have our own world in there…..

Happy Anniversary

Still remember how hard me and my husband build our life at first months of our marriage…commitment lies in a relationship could not be an absolute guarantee that u would be doing a happy life with someone. An ego is the reason of most couples have to break their relationship. Building a good relationship with our couples and keeping it grow naturally is not as easy as we think. So let us talk about goodness and similarities rather than weakness and differences. Love has no tendencies of being competed one another…it more talks about “take and give”…u love someone because u wanna love him so…truly with “his whole package”, which is inside, u may find something u do not like, but u would try to accept it too.
Today is a special day for me…it has been six years, me and my husband, share our life through such means of togetherness. Laughs, debates, cries, fights and simple jokes…make our relationship grows firmly day by day…even our lovely kids make our life more beautiful and colorful..thanks for this pretty great blessing God...so many thanks...

It has been six years
Together we cry...together we laugh..
Sharing our hearts with such great feelings
Thanks for being a nice friend...a real lover...
and a good father for our kids...
May we keep our love till the end of our life
Happy anniversary honey...

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lovely thirty

When I was seventeen I just could not wait for being twenty…and would like to tell the world that…”here I was”, a real woman!! But reaching thirty years of my age I desperately wondered why the time is running so fast…?! Yeah, if u ask me in which would I like to be?? I would absolutely love to say…”in between twenty and twenty five”! Undoubtedly, it such a pretty good years every women like to be…”girl's appearance and matured”, or defined as “young in age and matured in thought”…ough, who don’t wanna be so?
But time is still running, and day is still going…as babies grow up, we would also grow older (= let’s say more matured), and these how a law of nature rules our life. I even find that sometimes people are shy to tell their real age...oh, why? Nothing to worry about "age" guys...! It would be as it is. The older we are the more experiences we got in this life..
Me, now in thirties…and I feel lovely even in this age...having family and friends, feeling their affections makes my lifestyle and life perspective are much changing...everything just taught me how I should be, definitely, being a mom..a wife...a daughter...and a part of social community is not an easy task! Thus I need to create a good balance in doing my life...and I feel so great for having encouraged it so far, now I had purposes behind every decisions I made…which never unthinkable by me before! I see my life is much meaningful and I proudly say that I also feel lovely to be in it..what about u??

me and cooking

Not to be denying myself...I'm not really good in cooking! I mean "not really", do not mean "not good" at all! I do cook well sometimes..hi hi..and always be sure about its taste...even though it may suddenly change on other's tongue! :)
I still remember how my mother was getting angry to me when I always ran away from helping her cooking...u know, a Javanese tradition required their girls to be smart in cooking! my granny often advised me to do so...yeah, I knew d reason was "if u are able to cook well, u would absolutely be a good wife...spoiling ur husband with ur nice cooks!" and d result is...ur husband never want to search for another cook (read: wife) as well! wow, sooo classic reason!! I know it has a good purpose, but I do not agree with d final result anyway! marrying someone is not about marrying a cook...it shouldn't be a comparative. To marry u need to love, and to love u need to accept sincerely whom u loved.
I think women naturally have an ability to cook...specially when they have married. Cooking would turn to be their demand. It's not a big deal babe! I do thank God that my husband take easy about it, and this what every husbands should do. He even cooks for me at many times...n it's furious! his cooks even taste more delicious than mine...he he, I do confess! why not? husbands should spoil their wives as well...
Herewith, I would also love to support every husbands to always grant their wives for d home-made cook - no matter it taste - even only by d single word of "thank u"....it's really mean much for us!!

fashionable

I use to spend quite long time to get myself ready suiting some clothes..n these was one of my bad-habit which I couldn't help it up to now...and my husband knew it very well, mostly hate it n keep complaining it...specially when we're in hurry..ups, no wonder, I think every husbands would do d same thing in this case!
Well I'm not kind of a fashionholic who would be dressing herself perfectly with only d very updated-fashions, but it seems to me that being fashionable is a must-do!! cos d outward appearances unlikely would reflect what's inside (read: "heart")....and personality. To be well-fashioned is not extremely to be on day-trends, on my idea, it's rather to put something in "mix and match" matter....I believe every women has these special kind of sense.
Women naturally love fashions, indeed are willing to spend much on it....(we hope men understand it as well!...he he), in d meantime, we have to consider that good stuffs did not mean d costly or d branded one, it may be priceless but if it gives us comfort, with a little creative touch it could be something fantastic and fabulous on our self...
So if u really have a deep concern on ur appearance as well as ur beauty...u absolutely need to be fashionable...ahai, I would lovely do it anyway!!

why not?

I just don’t care about being “blog-queen” or “hot-blogger” or whatever people say for those who write like magic which every single word written become a miracle, quoted by other people or even valued many dollars.
What I care is just how to express what I feel, what I think, what I believe in and what I do….freeing both soul and mind. I have fallen in love with writing long…long time ago and just wanna write as much as I could. And I’m not in the way of telling people that I do very good in English, so that I prefer to write in it!! No, I’m not! (I know my English is not excellent but also not too bad…:) No matter what, I just wanna do it and I get my sense through this…somehow seem like a chemistry..yay! he he..
My big boss ever told me anyway, “we need not to be shy or feel embarrassed to be “not very good-spoken” English, just talk the way u are”. Got it, dear??

a minute

“A minute” when I start learning to create my own blog, my friend leaves me a message through my facebook account (as I update my status on what I’m doing)…”keep trying…it’s namely learning by doing!!” and mostly share me the easy way of creating it…well then, that’s what I need and what all beginners need…yeah, kind of supports! thanks all!
Frankly speaking, I’m not very familiar with these stuffs regarding to “web-matters”…but I think I have to try, just treat it like gambling…u win u have, u lose u try for more…and in d last “minute” when I write these words, I’m still lost in my world of confusion…he2, hope could be back to my real world soon…